One!

Dear Jack,

My beautiful, funny, cheeky, non-sleeping little chicken! I don't think I'll ever be able to express all the emotions you have brought into mine & Daddy's life in this past year & in the time since we found out that you were on your way to us.

Talk about happy!!
I couldn't believe it when I saw those 2 lines on that stick. I had tested so many of those little plastic sticks over the 11 years that we had been waiting for you - I was stunned to see, finally, a second line appearing!
We couldn't keep a secret & all the Grandparents & Aunties & Uncles & friends & just everyone was so pleased to hear our news.

Talk about sad.
For one whole night we thought we had lost you before you even arrived & thinking about that night still upsets me, because I now know what we would have missed out on - a gorgeous little boy that drives us crazy!

You are now 1 & that first year of your life has flown by in the blink of an eye. Your arrival has wrought many changes in our lives - least of all lack of sleep. You are now our first thought in every decision we make & because of you we will soon be moving to our new house with a yard - just for you!

I love to see you learning & I am convinced you are a genius! You blow me away everyday with the new things that you do, it seems like I only show you a new thing once or twice & you just "get it".
You love to read books & I am so happy about that, I think & hope that books will be something that you & I will share for the rest of our lives.
You love people & are always ready with your beautiful smile to make everyone feel special. Everyone we meet comments on how gorgeous you are & it's always about your big blue eyes & curly, curly blonde hair.

So far you have a mostly happy nature, though you can certainly chuck a good tantrum when you feel it's necessary!

Chicken, we have so many more things to teach you - Daddy & I just can't wait to see what kind of person you grow into - hopefully the best of both of us!

Love, love, love,
Mummy & Daddy.

Then

At this moment last year I was in labour with the child I thought I'd never have, and in 14.5 hours I would be holding the screaming, shriveled, pink baby I thought I'd never hold.


How my life has changed!

I used to stay up all night because Jess was over & we were watching stupid TV or playing video games.

I used to get a shower everyday.

I used to get to pee without yelling out "I'll be right back - just a minute - it's ok!"

I used to watch the news - not Iggle Piggle.

I used to shop for myself.

I used to bathe alone.

I used to get drunk.

I used to read all night.

I used to sleep-in every weekend.

I used to talk to my friends more than once a month.

I used to not smell like vomit.

I used to gag at baby poop.

I used to have more topics to talk about.

I used to really, really want a baby.

Now - I couldn't be happier!!!!!

Dear

Anonymous (you know who you are),
Please take this blog entry as a heart felt apology. My slackness knows no bounds. My promises are empty. I will endeavour to do better in the future. I will employ my idle hands in blog entry making.

MAYBE!

I did have good intentions for this month - but you know other things have gotten in my way.
Jack's first birthday planning is in full swing, still a few things to organise though. Not that he will remember any of it. I will though.

Also buying a house is very time consuming - all that fantasising about where to put the furniture & whether to paint or not & OH MY GOD are we making the right decision???
Too late now - signed papers this morning.......ARGHH!

I hope Darren & Jack like toast, because that's what we'll be living on now.